Whenever I come back to this site, I see that picture of the run leg in Accenture and think 'I cannot wait until I can look like that again.'
This injury has highlighted my vain side.
Today was the first time in a while that I felt eager to start running again. That may sound shocking, as I always preach that I looove to run blah blah blah-- so of course I'd be eager, right? Wrong. I love running when I'm in shape. I love running when I don't feel like I'm going to throw up and then faint. Now that it has been almost three whole weeks since I set (broken) foot on a treadmill, I am the most out of shape I have been...ever. A very daunting mountain is standing strongly before me, daring me to try and climb it. Having run out of my narco drugs over a week ago, my energy levels are so far down that I see the mountain and say '...maybe later.' But for some reason, today is different. I know I have to be uber cautious when I am cleared to run again and that I have to start super short and slow and very gradually work up to it. But today I felt ready to start that ascent. I guess it's a step in the right direction.. or something? We'll see if the same enthusiasm is present when I can actually do something about it.
A friend of mine texted me today saying she wants to do an Ironman (she is a former soccer freak (more than yours truly) that recently had knee surgery and was told soccer days are over.. something about the side to side motion and cartilige.. but she can still run). I said 'real smart ten days after surgery' in reply to which she said 'well not tomorrow. can I convince you do to it with me?' Duh. Of course. I still want to do a half ironman next year. I'm starting to think that TNT is my best choice. There's no way in the world I could prepare myself for something like that without the help of a program or coach. TNT is the only one that will just cost me my pride as opposed to my $$$ (or lack thereof). Asking people for money is something I'm still not interested in, but I was thinking since I have all this spare time, maybe I can get more creative in fundraising and try doing an event or something. Who knows what I'll decide, but I've gotta figure something out- sooner than later. And I need a new bike.
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