Confession

Confession: while the night shift can be equally as chaotic as day shift, there are also times when it is absolutely mind numbingly boring. Last night to pass the time I read about how terrible working graveyard shift is for one's overall health. It may have been a small private pity party.

Confession: Several months ago I decided to motivate myself by signing up for a half marathon. I gave myself a solid three months to train for a 13.1 mile race on March 20th. HA. I can barely sputter out three miles at a pace oh so slightly faster than walking. I emailed the race people to see if they would switch my registration to the 5k that will also happen that day. They said yes which is nice because now I can wear the t-shirt without being a poser and it's not a complete waste of money. But still, writing that email was mortifying.

Confession: I slept for almost 24 hours straight the other day (and night).

Confession: (this one's a doosey) ...i think i miss chicago... shh, don't tell. Maybe that's not 100% accurate--- I miss that I KNEW PEOPLE there. Starting over is some lonely business, let me tell you. It is gradually getting better, but much slower than I'd like. Then again, it seems as though things in life that take a while to happen are most enduring. So let's hope whatever social life I grow ends up being worth the wait.

I'm applying for a loan repayment program offered by the government. If accepted I have to commit to working at a critically short staffed facility for at least two years. The hospital I'm at qualifies, so no qualms there. Here is my plan: if I get accepted (they took like 700 something last year out of ~10,000 applicants... I'm not holding my breath) then I will definitely stay put for the two years, and depending on everything maybe the third that you can apply for (it takes the 60% repayment of your loans to I think 75%). If I don't get it, I will fulfill a year here and then see if travel nursing is a possibility again. Everyone at work always talks about travel nursing and how they've done it at one point and loved it, or how they can't wait until they get an opportunity to do it. Their excitement is contagious so... we'll see. Not having roots or attachments is awesome in the sense that I can do what I want when I want to do it. That will be the silver lining I cling to.