Praise the LORD for the internet and for nice at&t men who climb ladders to get a connection from the telephone wires even though they have RICKETS and obviously don't want to climb.
(for the record i offered MORE THAN ONCE to climb FOR him, to which he replied 'if my supervisor drove by and saw you on a ladder, he'd have my head'...and well, i guess no one likes a head-less at&t man).
So the hand of reality slapped me in the face today-- there are a lousy EIGHT days until I'm registered to run 13.1 miles in a race like manner. I wish I could adequately describe how nauseous this makes me. Many people say 'oh, you'll be fine, you're over exaggerating.' However, I am actually being quite practical. I am not ready for this race. My last half marathon, I was very prepared-- I hit 13 miles in my training two and a half weeks before the race-- and I still almost fainted/vomited/died at the finish line. This time-- I hit 8 miles about two weeks ago... haven't gone past that. Sooo I'm a) mortified, b) terrified, and c) really disappointed in myself. I don't know why I haven't done what I knew I needed to do. I did actually try, but something about the fact that... it was ... hard flipped me out. I don't know. My legs hurt. I had a wicked bout of the flu for a week and am still not really recovered. I started the night shift which throws any sense of normalcy down the drain. There are so many reasons that justify where I'm at in my training, but excuses make me sick and the fact that I'm full of them makes me sicker. The fact that I'm not where I wanted to be and where I should be if I were a serious and legit runner is upsetting beyond belief. When I chuckle as I say I am not ready, I am actually cringing inside and searching for some way to turn back time and re-do these past two months so that I could be ready to dominate this half marathon and beat my time from January. As it is, I am praying that I can finish.
Send me your endurance vibes. They will NOT be wasted.
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Good luck with the race!
The flu is not an excuse. It is one of those things in life that "happens." It will affect your training. It will probably affect your performance in the race. To minimize the effect, you have to accept it, then be smart. Don't over train or train too much, too soon. You know you can do the distance, so just do you best and be proud. The rest of us are!
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