Well....

Not even 24 hours after writing that I am probably bowing out of any races this season, I start thinking "Well...." UGH.
When I was in Chicago last spring/summer, I trained with a coworker most of the time. She's now a hot shot member of a triathlon gym and preparing for TWO half ironmans this summer. She's already done an 8k and a half marathon and apparently this weekend her training added up to two miles short of a half ironman. And I'm on the elliptical. I feel like such a loooser. So then I start looking for ANYTHING to pull me out of this deep rut I'm stuck in. I come across race calendars and training tips, all things that would occupy me for hours on end last year, but now they give me a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach and fuel my pity party.
Then I came across this. Last year I would have declined the notion of a women's training group because a lot of women are pansies (a lot are hardcore GI Janes, but a lot more are pansies). But now I'm kind of like, I have to do whatever I can to get back at it. And truth be told, I'd fit right in with pansies. So I sent an inquiring email. There is a bike training they're doing May 11th that I (think?) I would like to go to. Even considering it about it makes me nervous and kind of nauseous actually. I haven't ridden ole Speedy since... August or September... the tires are FLAT and I don't have a tire pump. I can only imagine the fool I'll make of myself re-learning the clipping pedals and donning bike shorts. Ugh maybe it's a bad idea. But I can't deny the whispering voice that says maybe it's exactly what I need.

... so we'll see, I guess. =/

(and in the short time it took to scribe this, I already got a response to the email... will someone come with me?!?!)